Wednesday, April 07, 2004
Well, life seems to be more promising lately. At least my perspective has been getting more positive. I am optimistic about some job opportunities that have come along lately. A job as an underwriter with Jeff Carter seems to be the best option. I am fully convinced now that job-hunting is all about who you know. Kim is very anxious for me to get a job. I feel as if I am failing her by keeping her in this house. Perhaps I am. I don't want to do that anymore. I want to be the bread-winner. I want to be a respectable husband and father. I want to earn my keep.
The search for my purpose in life has been pacified for a while. I now just want to listen for God's voice and follow it. I've noticed a lot lately that what God wants me to do and what I want to do are often not the same things.
Justin Narducci has been a great friend lately. God's hand is definitely upon him. I know that he prays for me and that encourages me greatly. Many of my friends from the ooze encourage me as well. Seraphim is such a great guy. I want to meet him someday. Lance has been telling me horror stories from his days at Central. Central has been so frustrating lately. The more I learn about it, the less happy I am with it. I try not to become a self-righteous jerk, but it is hard.
Fatherhood is slowly approaching. It still doesn't seem that real to me. I am waiting for the responsibilities to hit us like a ton of bricks. I really would like to give a home to this child. We are bouncing around several name possibilities. They are all secret though. We shall see.
The search for my purpose in life has been pacified for a while. I now just want to listen for God's voice and follow it. I've noticed a lot lately that what God wants me to do and what I want to do are often not the same things.
Justin Narducci has been a great friend lately. God's hand is definitely upon him. I know that he prays for me and that encourages me greatly. Many of my friends from the ooze encourage me as well. Seraphim is such a great guy. I want to meet him someday. Lance has been telling me horror stories from his days at Central. Central has been so frustrating lately. The more I learn about it, the less happy I am with it. I try not to become a self-righteous jerk, but it is hard.
Fatherhood is slowly approaching. It still doesn't seem that real to me. I am waiting for the responsibilities to hit us like a ton of bricks. I really would like to give a home to this child. We are bouncing around several name possibilities. They are all secret though. We shall see.
